Day off?

Well, here it is... the day I was looking forward to all week. What a let down. It's been such a long and frustrating week. Starting school as been an exciting, stressful, and disorderly adventure. The first day I woke up with pink eye. On my way to my parents' house to get medicine, my tire blew. It was wonderful to have a husband take care of it while I sat in the car. Once we finally got the doughnut on and medicine for my eye, I called in sick to work. They were understanding, which certainly helped. The rest of the day, I napped. It sounds lovely, but it wasn't. My eye hurt all day, it made it difficult to lay comfortably and stop the pounding headache it caused. Tuesday was a bit better, I was able to attend class and work while wearing my glasses. Wednesday I wore my contacts and my eyes felt much better. Still, the day nearly killed me. Three classes in a row, then a full day at work was so overwhelming. I didn't have time to eat until nearly 6:30 that night. The whole day put me very much on edge. Stressed. Panicked. Why did I ever decide to go back to school and work, both full time?? I'm not sure. Thursday was less stressful, but I could hardly function due to the overwhelming pressure of Wednesday. It made me so tired. Friday was a bit better yet. Not as stressful, but still busy. At least I could function with hope of the weekend. But unfortunately it didn't deliver as I was hoping. Jason and I had planned to spend the day together at Lagoon. Time for fun and enjoyment, relaxation. We discussed it this morning and decided this week would not be the best to do that. We talked about replacing it with going to a movie instead. I've been dying to see "Time Travelers Wife", but Jason wouldn't hear of it. He ONLY wanted to see "Star Trek". Nothing else. So... that's what we did. It wasn't a bad movie, but I was in such a bad mood by the time we went to see it, it was hardly enjoyable. The junk food I thought would help me feel better just ended up making me sick. Everything just felt more and more frustrating as the day went on. So here we are, the end of my one day off... watching more Star Trek and waiting for the laundry to finish. At least Jason got what he wanted, I guess. But now I'm just dreading another overwhelmingly stressful week, without the recharge I was hoping to have in my favor. My school books have not all arrived in the mail, which even limits me in homework ability. Another stress on the pile. Falling behind would be a lovely start on my degree, wouldn't it? Agghhh!!

Full time students, working, and married.

Wow... so much, so much. But my life seems so little compared to others. Vickie, I love you, girlfriend! Things will get better and until they do let me be here for you! Megan, congrats on your first anniversary! It all sounds so lovely. Jason and I can't wait for the wonderful day when we can be sealed. :o) But until then, life keeps us busy. All of our schooling problems have been sorted out and we're both registered. Now if we could just figure out a way to pay for books until our grant money comes through... Jason is taking 4 classes all in evening times. I am also taking 4 classes, but all during the morning. Full time students, working, married. Boy, it's going to be a lovely four or five years. But everyone does it! We'll make it through happily enough. Jason has been having a few struggles with discouragement the last couple of days. It can be difficult to remain positive while being continually told no. So hopefully with school starting soon he'll gain back some lost confidence. The husband needs lots of love and support right now! Keeping up with that and a new job as been a bit overwhelming, but fun. The new job as given me lots to learn and look forward to. It's nice to once again be busy and full of things to do. So, keeping on!

Whoo... Change!

Holy crap so much is going on! So Jason and I spent an entire day doing the Weber run around. But is wasn't completely worthless (for once)! I AM going to make it in for this fall... barely. I need to take two acuplacer tests and register! But the problem with that, because there always has to be a problem, is that it's finals week! :-P So, I can't get into the testing center until Monday...which means I can't sign up for classes until the week before school actually starts! Poo. But, I still get to go and that rocks. Jason gets to go too and that makes me happy. He only needs to take one test, then he can register. So that's as far as it can go until Monday. But Monday in itself is going to be crazy because that's the day I start my new job! I'm so excited to go and learn new things, but my nerves are kicking up, too. Hopefully I won't make too much of a fool of myself. :o) So much is happening... but it's all good. My goals are moving along. A ran out of Slim Fast and I don't get paid again until Friday. So, I need to be extra careful on what I eat until I can get back into that swing. I'm going to borrow my sisters work out videos (Turbo Jam) to begin Monday. Hopefully that will help! Beyond that, I'm going to start digital scrapbooking again. I want to get all my wedding pictures, our announcements, and everything all put together. So that will be a fun activity to work on! So much to do and work on! I'm lovin it!

New haircut, diet, and job

It's time to do something new... or lots of somethings new. :o) I chopped my hair off, for starters. It's spikey in the back, short. I like it, but it's really different. I haven't quite figured how to style it cute. I'm working on it, though, and feeling better about it everyday. Next, I decided I'm ready to live a more healthy life. I'm married, I don't have the constant stress of an engagement on my plate any longer- there's no more excuses. So I'm starting up the slim fast plan and am working on an exercise plan. My goal is to work myself down to a size 7/8 jeans. Healthy, good weight. I don't want to dread swimming suit season next year. Then, on top of all that, if "that" wasn't enough to keep track of, I'm starting a new position on Monday! I'm still working for America First, but now I'll be in the Member Service Call Center instead of tellering. I can not even wait. The one thing I LOVE about my current job is that I get to talk to new people every day. Now I'll be able to do that, without the constant pressure of balancing out a drawer. All the better! Not too long ago I had a huge outage ($951.00). It was terrible. I made myself sick over stressing about it. So done with that! AND... the best part is the raise! I'll get a 60 cent an hour raise, which will more than pay for my travel to Roy. Then add all that in with the fact that when everything works out at Weber, they'll be able to work around a student schedule, and it's perfect!! Can you believe it?! Better than perfect! Now if only things WOULD work out for school... that'd be nice! It's been so crazy, because of my name changing and all the mess with transcripts. I'm not going to make it in this fall for sure. Jason's pressing to get everything in, but he's not even so sure it'll happen. I pray it will, because I know it's difficult on him to just be home 24/7. He's such a big help around the apartment, I mean, it's always spotless, but how boring is that everyday? He's still hunting around for a job, so if anyone hears about anything, please let us know! But really, life all around is wonderful! I'm so happy to be married. Some mornings I wake up to see Jason beside me and I have to fight back the tears of joy. After so long, he's here! It always amazes me.
Vickie, my favorite day of the week is Saturday. I never work past 3:00pm (for now at least... but that's going to change soon!), and I always look forward to spending the weekends with my honey. Be that out or in, we always find something fun to do. :o)

Been A Long Time...

And so much has happened!! I've gotten married, of course, and my wedding day was picture perfect. Jason's little brother Tyler wore a red tie (and red was only meant for the Bride and Groom), but I didn't even notice until I saw my pictures. That's my biggest complaint. We didn't forget anything, my hair and make up looked lovely (thanks to a talented and fabulous Vickie), my bouquet was lovely, everyone was there that could have been, the weather was nice... everything was wonderful. I did miss my nephew and brother in law, both of whom are serving our country, but they'll enjoy the pictures. That night Jason and I stayed at the Alaskan Inn. It didn't hit me that we were married until about 3:00am the next morning. I had to wake Jason up to tell him. Poor guy. (But he loves me. :) The next day we were planning to go to Lagoon, but decided we were much too tired. (Especially when you have a crazy wife that wakes you up in the middle of the night to tell you things you already know!) But, getting married is also very exhausting! Even without our open house the same night! So that next day we visited our families instead. My parents had our wedding gifts, so we opened those and got to talk to everyone. Then we went to the Mills home and I nearly fell asleep while Jason talked with his Dad. It was kinda weird to have Jason laying next to me in front of his parents. I'm not honestly so sure his Dad was cool with it either. But what can he say when we're properly married? Nothing. Ha! :) Love that part. After that, Jason and I said good bye and headed to the Anniversary Inn for our second night married. Thanks to a wonderful Maid of Honor, Crystal! I honestly would have lost my mind without her! We got to stay in one of the top rooms, African Safari. The bed was SOOO comfy! King Size, Itelli Gel... Nice! Jason and I ordered pizza for dinner and had it delivered to our room while we watched "How to Loose a Guy in 10 Days". It was so much fun to just relax and be together. Especially since the next day wasn't relaxing at all. We moved as soon as we got back from Logan and did our open house that night. Crazy! Then that weekend we got everything settled at home and we were back to work on Monday. It's been a happy three weeks-- married life rocks! We have had our share of heartbreaks, though. On July 23, my sweet Lady passed away. We were expecting it because she was having so many health problems with her heart and breathing. But it was still so difficult to see her leave. I found out on my way to work. By the time I got there, it was no longer a question of my family needing me, but if my work would let me leave. They did, thankfully. Jason and I drove to Logan once again to bury Lady in my sisters backyard. Dad said a little tearful prayer, and that was that. It was a difficult day for everyone, but my Dad most of all. I don't think I've ever seen him so upset. It was wonderful to have Jason beside me, being my best friend. Someone to cry with and understand. Other than that family crisis, things have been fairly lovely. Jason and I have both applied to Weber for this fall. Jason's FAFSA is turned in and ready to go, mine is waiting my name change. It's nice to feel a fresh start to life, and even more so with a partner beside you. My work wasn't thrilled about housing 5 students, so it looks like evening and online classes for me! (Yay.) :-P But, it's just such a blessing to be going back at all, I won't complain too loudly. Today I had a chat with my honey and set some new goals for life. (Don't you love those "life altering" conversations?) I want to do more things for myself and feel the accomplishment. Jason thinks (and probably correctly) that I've spent too much time in the last few years of my life worrying about him, doing things for him, and trying to get married that I've lost focus on myself. And now, since we only have our Bandit to entertain our time, seems ideal to find that focus once again and put it in balance with being a wife. But wish me luck... It seems like so much. :) But ready or not... Life, here I come!